I didn't know... I only know that I didn't know if I was going to heaven. And let me tell you, that's a really scary feeling. Not knowing where your spending eternity, well lets just say the past few months have been really hard for me. Because I was doubtful, and I know that thinking and testing, and doubting your faith is okay. But this wasn't just any doubt, I seriously didn't know. And that changed, oh it changed. I thought I was saved, but I did not know. And now I do, the night of September 9th my eyes were opened! I can say with blessed assurance that Jesus is my lord and saviour! I know that some maybe most of you that know me will be confused, thinking "wait I thought Moira was already a Christian!?" I thought so too, I mean I believed in Jesus, I knew he was there, but I guess if you've grown up living in a family always knowing about God, that to you he's something you do. You might go through the motions, go to church, read your Bible (sometimes), And sing along to "those Christian songs" (and that's what I was doing). But I hadn't known, I hadn't felt HIM like I did that night. And let me tell you, it was OVERWHELMING, I cried and I laughed, and it was like nothing I've EVER felt before. My mom ended up coming into my room, and seeing me... (she probably thought I had gone crazy) I told her though, and together we rejoiced! I thought that by praying the prayer I could have Jesus, like if I said it and tried my utmost to mean it, then I'd be saved (I know, I'm shaking my head at that too). But that's not how it happens... It's all on his timing, I thought I could accept him into MY life, but really He has to accept me as HIS child. A child of the light. That's what I am now. …8For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. 10For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them. ~Ephesians 2:9. And for me this happened just this past Wednesday night! Surprise! September 9th is my spiritual birth (also my Dads physical birth :-P). I feel new, whole, peaceful, beautiful, and clean. And also vulnerable, nothing can take me from my lord Jesus. But I know that there will be temptations ahead (it's not gonna be easy peasy) So please pray for me, and I in turn will be praying for you. Whoever you are I will pray, that he will one day open your eyes, that he will make you a child of His light. And if you already are then praise God!
Blessings,
Moira Grace
